My heart has been rather unsettling. There is this continuous urge to settle down (partly because I believe I am getting older). Yet when I meet someone whom I think is ideal and compatible, the feeling only reaches the edge of my heart before it fades away. I get this constant fear of "what if I fuck this up again?" The more interesting part is that, there isn't really a let-down or a build-up that leads to these walls I built to protect myself. Okay, I lied. I am so tired, yet I cannot describe it in such a way that will grant it justice.
